¡Hola! Lo siento
for my lack of journal updating. I'm currently back in college for the summer taking Spanish I, so I might not update very much. As far as I know, the semester ends about near the end of July, so yeah...no big vacation for me. Not complaining though; I like to keep myself busy, so long vacations don't sit well with me anyway. Summer semesters usually move a bit quickly, so I'm hoping I'll be able to keep up. Most of the work will be done over the internet, and the required textbook for the class costs over $200...yeouch. (Hopefully they'll use the same book in Spanish II.)
I know Dios
is still watching over me and guiding me as I go through vida un día a la vez
. I'm getting that much closer to figuring out mi
purpose en vida
. Theoretically I'll be helping an amiga
develop her original story (and maybe vice versa), or so that's what I've been piecing together from my weird dreams and events en mi vida
Looking back at what I've gone through so far, I can say that Dios
has been answering my prayers and challenging me to put faith into action. He's already thrown a friend in my direction as well as situations to test what I've learned so far about being an amiga
to others (read my writings about Social Awkwardness if you're not familiar with mi
progress). I've accepted that I'm not a super duper like-a-dog social person, but at the same time I've found that I've been capable of opening up and socializing more than I usually do. (You could say I'm in-between or ambiverted in a way). And I still enjoy helping out in whichever way that I know I can. Doors are opening for me, and Dios
continues to remind me that He's not finished with me yet, even when I have moments of feeling impatient. But He's still there to reassure me, and I'm here to keep on following, learning, and discovering.
Funny but true story: Last weekend, on the night before a graduation party that I was invited to (my friend's sister), I was unable to sleep so I talked with God for four hours. The last thing I asked was for some kind of confirmation that I should go attend the party. When I finally went to bed (and had several weird dreams), the last dream I had--the one I actually remembered--went something like this: I logged into an instant messaging program to talk to my friend, but then I was suddenly disconnected and kicked off for a moment. Eventually I was able to log back in and talk to my friend again. And that was the end of the dream. Waking up that day, at first I was unsure what to make of it. I logged in but didn't see my friend online (she was supposed to be picking me up for the party because I had no other transportation). Last minute check on Facebook after getting ready and I realized that my friend sent me a message telling me to let her know if I was still going. So I called her on my cell phone to check with her and see what's going on. Soon, the call dropped and I had to try a few times to call her back until I was able to get a hold of her again. We were able to get in touch again and she arranged to pick me up. After about two hours of waiting, I just thought about when she'll be arriving and somehow I knew just when she was coming ("she'll probably be here while I'm in the bathroom"). Soon enough I hear my dad answering the door in the background and my friend coming in as I'm using the toilet. Afterwards I found myself telling my friend about the funny "coincidences" in the car as we left to her sister's grad party. I'm not much for big parties with lots of people, but I actually enjoyed it very much and didn't feel uncomfortable there at all.
Not much else to say at the moment as far as updates go, so maybe I'll get back to that later.Adios
for now. ¡Dios te bendiga!
~ Jazzy C. Oaks
[13 de mayo de 2013
If you find yourself confused by any of the Spanish terms that I intentionally used to illustrate the moment, do look them up and learn.